Please let me indulge my drunkard self today (I’m hoping spell check does its job)
As I sit here in my pit of slovenly alcoholism (just today mind you, we’ll a bit of yesterday, but I’m not counting) I think about how life (I love it more than….. Well you get the picture) can give you a full 360 degrees roundhouse in the jaw and try to teach to a valuable lesson. Now I’m crap at lessons, I NEVER learn from ANY mistakes. I taught at secondary school level science at the beginning of last year as I left the army, and I distinctly remember those kids not learning from mistakes either (does that make me down with the kids?)
I’ve been told about putting my life on line before, but that was from the girl I fell in love with, she didn’t want me to do that, I can understand It from her point of view, but never once mentioned my private life at all. Just the fun stuff that happened on a day to day basis. Well, life changes and situations present themselves at the most inopportune moment. I now find myself alone on the edge of the abyss of solitude again looking at the bottom of a JD bottle (my it’s a big one) so I write from the heart,……..
At 44 I pretty much thought I was immune to heartache, married twice, divorced twice, friends with 99% of ALL ex partners (never lose a friendly face) and happy to float through life making acquaintances where ever I find myself, but these last few months have been the most turbulent, idiotic, frustrating, confusing best months of my life. I owe it all to one special person, and now I find myself at loggerheads with myself on my emotions. The ONLY thing to do was end it, which was also the most stupid thing to do.
I’m sorry, I’m wallowing in a glass of Jack, I’ll sign off now as I’m getting personally involved with my emotions
To my family and friends (really!)