Those were the days of our lives.

You look back along your timeline (Facebook generation will know all  about this) and you realise that life has a strange ebb and flow. The ups the downs, the highs the lows, the not so clever ideas and the downright disasters! Mine will be no different to anyone else’s really, just the environment will be a little harsher and the decisions may be a little more life changing than some but we all have light and dark in our past! To see into these dark places, a little flame of reminiscence needs to be lit as its only in retrospect we know they were humdingers or howlers! To see past the light we need the shades of self judgement (not too harsh though, or all our plusses become equals, or minuses even)   

  Depending on your point of view, you’ve either lived a worthwhile life or a pointless life (the math WILL add up) but at least you’ve lived it. Many have never had the chance, many many more have not even had the potential given them to even warrant a thought. So live this life we are privileged to own. Make those bad decisions (who’s counting at the moment anyway?) we only ever hear of those repenting on their deathbeds and they won’t count! The good things we do will not mean a thing in the end. Memories last only until the rememberee has no more to give. Any bequeaths last about as long as they are of use to someone and photographs fade (except if they are digital, then they get deleted with the dead)   

  What’s happening for me to lament the glorious past? Well nearly a year ago I had the chance to start something new, to put aside the dark patches and strike a light into my life. In that time elapsed, I have had a fair few disasters but stil live to enjoy the wealth of experiences I have been challenged with. While not being the most level headed person in my head (sometimes it feels as though a few of us reside in there) I have made a whole host good decisions. Not too many bad ideas at all really so the fuck ups are not mine to deal with 🙂 (I say that with a smugness of innocence) some would say I am a man of many faults and failures while some will champion my corner! To the naysayers I say “sorry I’ve ran out of ‘Bovvered’” to my support, I say “hang in their buddy’s, I’ll be back”